Waiting

~So there is this guy in my intro to writing class that i have a major crush on. I mean I have it bad. I haven’t felt like this in almost three years. This is terrible. And to top it all off i’m too scared to actually talk to him for fear that he will reject me! And I think that he might have wanted to talk to me after class but i’m not really sure and i was just being stupid and i should have like waited for him cuz i turned around and he was following me at least i think he was and maybe i’m being delusional about all this but i’m just really hoping right now. if this works out this will be my first boyfriend in three years. i don’t want to screw this one up. I really like alex, that’s his name by the way. I don’t really know all that much about him except that he’s going to be playing track and field and he’s a sophomore and a transfer from UW Milwaukee and omg I’m just obsessed. this is terrible!! But i prewarned you. So I finally got the nerve to do something about this crush of mine and i facebooked him a message and now i’m waiting in agony for a reply! I’m just praying that i get one! And tonight would be nice! Even if he doesn’t like me i would rather just have him facebook that to me and tell me so i don’t have to keep checking my facebook to see if there is a new message from him. I rather hear something good or bad if that means getting a reply!! Oh man my heart is racing. I forgot what it felt like to feel like this! Its terrible. I haven’t liked a guy like this in such a long time. Sometimes that makes me wonder if i had to easier to not feel like this, but then again i was alone and unhappy so i guess i would rather have hope chasing after someone instead of just sitting around being depressed that i’m sad and lonely.

~So otherwise things are going alright. I actually excersies this week like everyday i’m so proud of myself. I also haven’t overeaten much either. I’m so very proud of myself! I really want to lose 20 pounds by the end of this school year, that would be amazing but even if i don’t hopefully this working out will lead to me not gaining the freshman 15!! that’s what i’m really afraid of! but i’m doing ok so far!! 

~Ok well i just keep wanting to write about alex but i don’t want to seem that obsessed anymore so i’ll just sign out <3