Please Don’t Mind What I’m Trying To Say…

~Cuz I’m being honest when I tell you that you your part of the reason I’m so set on the rest of my life being a part of you…

~So the title and following are from the song Honestly by Cartel, who i saw in concert last night and it was AMAZING!! I love Cartel I really do and that just made my love more apparent. They played all my favorite songs and they played a lot of them. The last concert I went to they didn’t play too many songs and that concert was way more expensive than this one and it also had a ton more people at it and I have to say the Cartel concert was way better!!! 🙂

~But other than the concert nothing has been going real well for me… And yes its all because of the guy!! So his name is Steve so I don’t have to keep saying "the guy"… anyways, so he has totally lead me on to believe that he’s into me. Ok fine and dandy. I like him too. This should be amazing right? WRONG! So he’s the low down, we were doing homework on wednesday in his room and his internet was being slow and his computer really wasn’t fucntioning nicely so I joked that his computer hated him. So later we are talking on facebook and all of the sudden he logs off. Strange. So I text him and he’s like my computer was being stupid, so then I say well maybe it really is you that it hates, and he says what ever next time we’ll go to you room, I say ok sounds like a deal, he says so what homework are you gonna do? (we don’t really have any more homework for the classes we are in) then i say IDK maybe we could watch a movie instead homework is stressful, he says thats true i kinda like that idea, and i say me too 🙂 and he doesn’t reply after that! So that was wednesday night… thursday we have class together and i sit by him and am totally trying to flirt with him but he’s making it so difficult! Anyways so i ask him what he’s doing this weekend, he says friday i might be going down to the east side for a party and saturday we have a basketball scrimmage. So i say what time is the scrimmage and hes like 1. so we go back to class and after i’m like we should hang out on saturday. and hes like maybe and i’m like i work til 8 and he’s like we’ll see… WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This now makes me think that i’m wasting my time and that he really doesn’t like me… But I really have no idea. I wish I knew. I wish that this was easy! I know i haven’t had a boyfriend in a while but by my observaiton of guys if they wait around for midnight on my birthday to send me a text telling me he wanted to be the first one to wish me a happy birthday, and being the one to give me his number and then saying we should do homework together sometime and asking me to do an assignment with him and always starting the facebook chat conversation… this all leads me to think that he really likes me but then when I go in for the kill he like blows me off!!! I JUST DO NOT UNDERSTAND!!!! Please any guy that reads this help me out!!! I’m so at a loss right now. I’ve felt like crying all day. and when we had class together today i didn’t say anything to him he didn’t say anything to me. We had class presentations though and when my group was presenting he didn’t look at me when i was talking but when i was just standing there with my group and i looked over at him he quickly looked away so WHAT THE HELL!!!!! I broke down and texted him like an hour ago and he hasn’t texted me back…but i think he might still be at basketball practice… I just don’t know… well i guess i should just stop ranting about it…

~So on a lighter note, my sister is coming later to stay the night with me. its taken me forever to get her here so hopefully all goes well… also my friend jamie is on her way here to give me my birthday present! I have no idea what it is but she said that she has to give it to me soon so it doesn’t dry out!! kinda makes me worried!

~Well that’s all i have for now! Please leave comments about the guy thank you <3