Now The Dark Beings To Rise…

~So on Thursday I was officially done with my first semester of college!! That’s really exciting! It went by really fast! I was super surprised! But on the other hand a ton of things happened. I mean looking back at the first week when Adam was hitting on me and I was so surprised to have someone actually look at me that way, to my huge crush on Alex, to my major heartbreak with Steve, I guess I can say that a ton of things actually did happen in that short amount of time. At least my college experience hasn’t been boring and I’ll have something to look back on when later in life I’m working a boring job somewhere but that’s ok I always want to remember the fun times… 🙂

~I also went to a Breaking Benjamin concert on Thursday! It was amazing!!! I’ve been looking forward to this concert for a couple months!! I love Breaking Benjamin!! They were one of the bands on my list of must see bands before I die, I pretty much only have Three Days Grace on that list right now and  I might see them in a month with Breaking Benjamin but we’ll see its an hour and a half away and on a monday and I have class so we’ll have to see what I can do about that!!! But I really hope that I’ll be able to go to that concert! God I’m obessed with music and concerts!! I guess that’s what happens when your me!! Also Josh and some of his friends scored free tickets to the Theory of a Deadman concert in January so now we are going!! Its the last day of winter break too so its like a jump start to my spring semester!! i ended fall semester with a concert and start spring semester with one!! That’s super exciting!! well at least to me it is!!

~So I still think about Steve all the time. We started talking again. I’m not totally sure what I’m supposed to think about that yet but it won’t matter. I won’t see him for 5 weeks and I don’t have any classes with him next semester. So its not like I really have the chance to make things go any farther, and I’m not sure if I want it to. I’m not really sure what I want with him… I mean we weren’t even going out and he left me for another girl, whos to say he wouldn’t do it again if we started dating… I’m not sure if i’d ever be able to trust him… But that’s alright, I shouldn’t spend too much time thinking about this cuz its not like its ever gonna happen…

~So I’ve been working a ton!! I wish that I could just have time to chill by myself for a while and do nothing not have to worry about a job money homework life… God that would be amazing… But seeing as how i’m having trouble coming up with the cash to pay my spring semester tuition I kinda have to worry about all of this!! Which totally sucks!!! But i guess that’s part of growing up. I also got fitted for a knee brace yesterday, but my parents aren’t sure if we can afford it, $1000 for a knee brace is a ton of money, i’m still hoping that i’ll be covered by the insurance… but i won’t find out for like another week! Which sucks, I really want to play sports again but I guess I’ll have to give that up, its not like i’ve never given up anything that means the world to me… its happened before and it will happen again, i’m just not sure if there are many things left in my life that mean the world to me…

~Ok I guess that’s a good enough update for now… I hope that everyone has a MERRY CHRISTMAS!! and yes its CHRISTmas… oh how people criticize religion! <3