Let Me Go…

~One more kiss could be the best thing
And one more lie could be the worst
And these thoughts of never resting
Your not something I deserve
~Let Me Go 3 Doors Down

~Ok so inspiration for these lyrics…last night, holy shit, I’ve never been surrounded by so many drunk people before, yes I was that sheltered, and i was the only one sober, true i was pretty much the only one under 21 so i had a reason to be but some of the other younger ones were drinking, i just knew that a desinated driver was needed… anyways so one of my friends is back from Iraq and his leave is almost up, he has to go back on monday, and so we all went out as like a last get together. So we went bowling which I’m not sure is the best thing to do when people are drunk but it all ended up alright. I had an amazing time, probably because i was the only single girl that went… hmmmm, 🙂 don’t worry when I hang out with my brother and his friends i normally am the only girl so i’m used to it. So after two hours of bowling and dancing and having a good time some of the group left, and the rest of use stayed for another round, I didn’t bowl a second time, still too crippled to do too much, but i stayed and hung out. So after another two hours i got to drive a few people home!! yay me. I had to drive my friend from Iraq home and he was the last one so it was just the two of us and when we got to his house we just talked for like an hour sitting in my car. Which was cool cuz i haven’t really talked to him that much since he’s been back and i probably won’t see him again until after he comes home from his tour in march. And so after we talked i told him that i had to get home, I was tired and it was like 3 in the morning, I don’t stay out late and i’m going to a concert tonight so its already gonna be a late night tonight also, so i told him i needed to get home. Well before he left he kissed me. We almost had a thing going before he left but he’s three years older than me, and my brother’s best friend so we never really did anything. But this kiss turned into a make out session and I felt guilty. :'(… i’m not really sure why, but it just didn’t feel right. I eventually told him he NEEDED to leave and he left but he pretty much told me that he wants me to wait for him, and I told him we’ll see… honestly I don’t want to wait, and my reason for that is he’s not the one. I know he’s not… this is going to get really complicated… so as you can see my lyrics for today relate, especially the first line. I guess we’ll see where things lead to…