It Still Remains…

~I had a dream about Eric last night. I was kind of strange. We were at a mall or some place like that with an escalator, and Eric was a few steps in front of me and I saw him but didn’t want him to see me. Then all of the sudden he turns around and looks right at me. Immediately I diverted my eye contact and started looking around the place, but it was too late. He had seen me and practically shouted my name and started making his way towards me. I was happy that he made an effort to come and talk to me. When we got off the escalator he gave me huge hug and said that it was so great to see me. We started talking and everything was going really well. Kelsey, his wife, even came into the picture and was actually not bitchy to me and was having a civil non jealous converstaion with me! I couldn’t believe it!! But then again this was all a dream…

~I don’t understand why I still have dreams about him. I haven’t seen him in almost two years and I shouldn’t care anymore. But then again I do… I just don’t get it. I really do want to see him again though I’m scared out of my mind to see him again. Do I want to talk to him, Hell yes, he was my best friend, I told him everything, even after we broke up… He really was my everything for a while, part of the reason why I’m still here…

~Anyways… Despite the dream, everything has been going alright in my life. My old suitemate came to visit me yesterday which was amazing!! I love that girl! We had a nice dinner a little shopping and Life as We Know It with my sister. It was a great time!! Today I’m hanging out with other friends. We are going to church then to BW3’s and movie night after! I’m pretty pumped. I had a rather stressful week with two big tests on Thursday so this is my rewarding relaxing weekend!!

~The only drama that has happened has been between my roommate and one of our suitemates but that’s because my roommate is trying to set her up with another guy when she has a boyfriend here at school!! Silly, maybe, but hey its not my issue!!

~So there is a pic of me from a few months ago, so there you go musichater… enjoy!