I See Nothing In Your Eyes…

~So I need more advice… So Steve came over to my room yesterday to watch a movie. I was totally excited that he had agreed to hang out. I didn’t have any expectations for the night besides cuddling and that was completely fine with me. So when he gets here we pick out a movie to watch and its all good. It takes him forever to put his arm around me and I was so happy when he finally did. And we watch the rest of the movie like that and when its over he’s like what now? And I had a feeling that he wanted to kiss me. I was so nervous! So eventually we do and its all really good. Then I’m thinking if we are making us official or anything and I kinda ask him about it and he tells me that he feels really bad for not telling me this sooner but he’s not sure if he wants a relationship right now. 🙁  oh yes the world was going too perfectly for me… i should have seen this coming… he said that he didn’t want to hurt me. that he didn’t want me to wait for him to figure out what he wants in his life… And I thought that he really liked me…I asked him if he did and he said yes, but I guess not enough… I really want to wait for him, cuz right now there is no one else. Its only him, I can’t think about anyone else… I feel like I’m going in for total heartbreak but I don’t think that I can help it!! So I don’t know what I should do. He said that he felt terrible for not telling me what he thought before, but I give him credit for telling me and being honest with me and he was afraid that he had already hurt me… which he did, but I just don’t know… We just stared into each other’s eyes for the longest time not saying anything and I was really trying to see his meaning but I don’t think that i did… I just don’t know where to go from here…