I Don’t Want To Lose You Now…

~Is there any other way
To stop thinking about
Any of the days
We had it figured out
I don’t want to lose you
After all we’ve been through…
~It still remains by Cartel

~So those are my lyrics of like the week… I can’t stop thinking about him, about what we did, about what he did to me, about how hurt i was, still am, about how i can’t let him go no matter how much i want to…

~I talked to him on monday, the day after i posted my last entry… and he said that he was going to tell me and that he still wanted to be friends… I think that he was being honest, i mean he had to know that i already knew so him agreeing to talk to me at 11:00 pm on monday night when he was doing our big research paper so i have to give him some credit… But yeah i haven’t really talked to him since… and that’s ok… I need to let him go, but I can’t I don’t want to lose him… GOD WHY IS THIS SO HARD!!!!! so irritating!

~Other than that not too much has been happening… only one week of classes left then finals then first semester of college is over!! that makes me happy. but that means i have to move back home for the next five weeks… yeah that might not be awesome but i’ll deal…

~Well i should be doing homework now… <3