Cute…or not…

~So I looked so cute today OMG I can’t actually believe that i said that but its the truth and i can’t lie. And it was all for Alex and guess what i don’t think he even noticed and if he did well i got nothing!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m to the point where i should just give up because well that would be so much easier because then i wouldn’t keep this hope and have it get crushed each and every day that he doesn’t say anything or do anything, why do i care? I’m so broken that i don’t even think that any guy would want me, after they see how many pieces there are to put back together, they’ll be like fuck she’s so not worth the time… i never feel like i’m good enough for any guy, especially the cute ones, i just don’t know i just think that cute guys deserve girls who are just as good looking and i’m just not one of them, but i really should stop complaining about myself, i know its such a bad thing to do, but its easier than being positive sometimes… God i need help that no one can supply…

~My theme song…

Broken by Seether featuring Amy Lee

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph, I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

[x2]
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away