:'(

~For once in my life I just wish that everything fell into place. That for once I was happy. That for once I didn’t feel alone. I wish that I could be loved by someone so much that he can’t fall asleep at night because he is thinking about me. I wish that I could have someone to send my a random text during the day and get it at just the right moment to make me smile. I don’t have any of that. And I feel terrible for complaining about all this but its the truth. I never thought that it was too much to as for but it must be. For three years I have been alone, for three years I’ve wanted my life to take a dramatic turn. For three years I wanted that one person to come and make me feel like I’m worth it. For three years I have wanted to end my life and I have no idea why I haven’t done it. Everyone says that just wait and he will come, that I will find someone, that everything will work out. Well I’ve given it three years, and look where that has brought me. No where. I just don’t understand how some people seem to get everything they want. They are happy and everything always seems to work out just pleasently. I really want that. Not these tears that I can’t stop not this depression that I can’t escape but that I live with each and every day making it so much harder to keep living…