Written by flashlight

When a small child closes up, it takes a very long time to open all the shut down parts again.

There is no point in appealing to reason, because none exists yet. You feel somehow good about things when language once more continues its acquisition of and practice in new words and phrases. So you successfully withdraw your therapeutic presence once autism has been ruled out.

The rest of the life of one small child will be dedicated to trying to use her treasure chest of words to tell about the time she was made so small.

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ME you just expressed my entire life up to and including the respectful silence embedded at the end of that entry. ***** ryn: listen to the song “Shadowboxer” by Fiona 😉

April 21, 2004

This is so heartbreakingly beautiful

April 21, 2004

void. is a current mood really, and i am tired of kitten. so, i’ll come up with something less blah eventually. as for this piece, it’s amazing. very beautiful, and in fact, i’ve never really thought of it this way, but perhaps this stems into adulthood and is the reasoning behind many that are troubled. *sigh* xoxo,

April 21, 2004

thank you for those beautiful thoughts…..so many i know, inclusive of myself, have had to fight so hard for a voice……..i go now to rummage for my Tori Amos CD….i think “silent all these years” is going to be on ‘infinite loop’, today. *huggles*

Twinkz huggles for the Cub (((Me Explorer))) Thank you for writing about it all. Hugs and Love

Ahhhh… I understand a little more, as the layers are slowly, slowly peeled away to reveal the essence and center of a life made significant by this tremendous talent that resides in you. You are such a writer. Such a writer.

A wonderful treasure, used so brilliantly. Yes, you have a great gift. Warm Hugs

April 21, 2004

It’s so sad to think about a child so young shutting down. My 3 year old is so wide open and I just can’t imagine a child that young closing off parts of himself. My older one is ten though, and you can start to see it. NOt closed off, really, but modulated, parts of herself kept away, kept private, saved for home, for me, from the harsher reality of school and friends, and even that is sad to me

April 21, 2004

I’m not looking fwd to that moment when I no longer know half the stuff that goes on in Gavynns life. I just hope with the few shorts years I have left, that I can get him to understand that he can talk to me about anything.

April 21, 2004

*hugs*

((((hugs))) after my mother died, there was concern about my younger sister. she would not respond at times. my dad describes it as just looking at you with a blank stare. yes, children definitely do withdraw into themselves, especially after a trauma. you know i understand because we have a common bond. love,

You have made the world a little brighter with your presence, I hope that everyone who seeks your light of wisdom , finds it. and thanks for caring….BT

April 21, 2004

You’ve said so much in so few words, ME, and taken my breath away. Even your title is touching and perfect.

April 21, 2004
April 24, 2004

I see that scream and listen quietly as the darkness unfolds. You have come so far since that time, your pain and fear still rage. Your search will not stop, your quest unending, don’t succumb to the fear ME, I have watched you feel so many things, silently. Through your eyes I see a glimpse of that forbidden terror, it scares me to.