Me Explorer

September 10, 2003

Today

I didn’t sleep well, again. Tonight I might just take a bath and climb into bed, really early, and shut out the world. It’s a day for that, this one. Here are a couple of things, one from yesterday on the ride home, the other from this morning. I am grieving more than I did last year. Then I felt angry and defiant, I think. This year, I am tired, and I am very sad too, and I am wondering about so many things. This year I am free to feel the pain. And I’m grateful, you know. Because whatever feelings are here for me to feel, about what happened two years ago or last night, I can feel without having to mask them in one way or another. I am grateful that I have no secrets from my children, from their father, from the people in my world. Make of this day as fine a thing as you can. That’s what I plan to do.

This

There is no category
in this experience
but I won’t put it away
because if it is made up
of the castoff scrap cloth
from all your fine gowns and Harris tweeds
your double-knit polyester and Qiana dreams
gingham rickracked smocked cotton
still
it has become something else
a no name pastiche that is
beautiful and awful and dull and sparkling
viewed at the angles from where you sit
but it needs to be strutted in
so make of it what you will
unheard of and uncalled for
and mine

~~~~~~~~~~

We huddled
watched the flames
felt the ground and the walls tremble
with the horror of it

The air was filled with dust
ash and shock
armies moving numb through streets
war torn without warning

A moment of silence
beams of light shooting into the early dark
impossibly insufficient
today my heart is crying

Armiel

September 11, 2003

Make of this day as fine a thing as you can. You are wonderful. {{{{{}}}}}

Woman of many hats..

My heart is with you and all those that make up the amazing city that never sleeps.

I’m going to visit New York. On my way to Florida. Go up the Empire State building and blow kisses to Tom Hanks and Cary Grant, who of course, will be there waiting for me. “Hi Kalestra lets do lunch.” Cary could be a problem! Tom is not my type but, he was in the alternative movie *winks

Yes, do what you need. This is a day for each of us as well as all of us; those of us here and those gone on. Grieving and hope and changes all weave along together in life. Rest, remember, release and enjoy! (((Me Explorer)))

LiteBrite

An evening shutting out the world sounds very nice actually. Thank you for sharing your poems, they are beautiful!

I have lots of feelings too, today. Hard to express them, especially as well as you have, and there is much risk that my words will piss some off. I’m just so unsure about how the USA is going about this war that was seemingly foisted on us.

Mr. parallelogram

RYN: thank you kind lady, We are all gifts, just waiting to be unwrapped especially by oneself. Much respect it is a very sad day.

~Wings~

RYN: yes, ’tis her indeed. Such amazing insight into the human condition for a woman who never left Amherst.

The Rickster

Peace…

Mangocitrus

ryn: why are you planning to steal my popcorn? or are you saying this incase the spa people try to steal our popcorn? (*looks around all paranoid*)

Torin

With a big hug…

beautiful poems. thank you so much for sharing. 🙂

songbird

Lovely, MeEx.. I am still haunted by the thought of people running in that smoke…not knowing if they are running in the right direction or into bigger danger.. Still hard to fathom such a thing happening… Hugs

rynrmn: oooooh I see…. Okay… fine fine. 🙂

Lots of hearts were joining yours today, ME. I hope you’re sleeping well tonight.

*hugs* i love you my friend -Colette

Singing Nun

September 12, 2003

Your words speak for many…what a beautiful soul. ps – you – eventually – will get a quick mail.

Zenith

RYN: Kangaroos where I am are road kill.. They run across the road get startled by car lights on the highway, like deer, and just end up being slaughtered! The big ones can do some real damage.. Thankfully I was travelling in convoy behind a bigger car and we had an incident free trip.

laerima

all i have to say today is… well… qqqq hugs,

noko

September 15, 2003