I just don’t know anymore.
I am burning, bursting with longing and desire for you; for all of you.
I do not want to be a professional obligation to you, and yet I don’t know how to bring about a change in the role I play in your life.
So acceptance is key, right? Accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.
There is only one place to go with love and longing this strong: directly to God.
Not to you. Because the kindest thing I could think to say to you was to forget all about me/us/your job while you go on vacation.
I miss you so much now; and yet I miss what I want, and believe in the core of me I need, even when I see you almost every day.
The aching lack of what I need pierces every waking moment.
Is it you; or is it everything a woman is? Not any woman; but is it really only you? No. It is a woman who is out there who can meet my needs, as I meet hers; she exists because she must, for without her I don’t know how much longer I can go on.
Oh, I’m hardy; let me not get so on the brink here.
Where are you?
i’m am going through a similar loss. my boyfriend and i broke up after 3 years. i feel so much for you. *hug* j2
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You will find the woman you need…it will happen. I believe in you. Easy for me to say, when I have so many doubts about myself! 🙂 But I see you changing, becoming the woman you need, & only when you are happy within yourself will you be open to finding the right woman. Is this woman you love just a crush? I don’t know! But there is someone for you and I am sending hopeful thoughts to you..
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I am trying to find out about you, so I started at beginning and have gotten to here. I guess I have a few more entries to go. I am wondering what all I am going to find.
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