Shwoops

 Well, that didn’t take long. I was going to write yesterday’s entry when I got home, but I was waylaid by friends as soon as I got home. So, I’ll just write one now, and write one when I get home, or do a survey or something, as long as there’s as many entries as days in the month, that’s pretty much the same thing. I might not have time tonight, I will hopefully finally get my hair done, and then go to a conjoined fetus birthday party for my friend and his sister. I reallllyyy want a haircut though. It’s in "brown mop" mode, and that’s always annoying. I’m not great with hair, and not good at styling, so when it gets this long, I get frustrated and just kind of give up. It’s going to be cut short, probably spiky-ish, and I’m going to see how it looks blonde. I’ve got some black dye just in case it goes horrible wrong. I’ve never went with blonde before, so this will be interesting. Maybe the short, spiky, unnatural blonde "selling out" look will work for me 😛

All I really worry about as far as homework goes is that Spanish mid-term. I need to actually work on it today, I don’t go into work until 430. I actually have until Thursday, so I suppose Monday’s Photoshop assignment is more dire, but Photoshop is something I already know, whereas Spanish isn’t. 5-7 minutes seems like a really long time to talk about one’s family in front of the class. Little bro is on the task of getting pictures so hopefully he comes through.

I randomly went and had sushi last night. I had a craving, so I stopped by a couple stores, there was nothing decent-looking that was pre-packaged, and I didn’t want to buy the supplies and spend the time to make california rolls, so I stopped by I Love Sushi. There are a few sushi places around here, but it’s my favorite, and it was also the first one I Went to, so it’s sentimental. This is somewhat significant. Not only because I’ve only ever gone to sushi with other people, but because I just wanted to do it, so I did it. I usually don’t do things like that, following my whim without hesitation. I plan things out, or if it’s something like going out to eat, I usually don’t do it, figuring it’s a waste of money, or I could buy something else that will last longer, etc. Again, with friends, it’s different, and happens occasionally, but I never do things like that on my own. If I do get food, it’s because I have nothing else with me most of the time, and I’ll hit up a dollar menu or something really cheap. Just doing something nice for myself because I can afford it and not thinking past that is nice, and probably something I should do more often. I want to follow my whims more, to eradicate most of my inhibitions. I posted something on facebook about it, I don’t think anyone understood that it was kind of a big deal. The sushi itself isn’t, just the concept of sushi, if that makes any sense. Even something as relatively insignificant as this is showing that I really am taking more chances and holding myself back less, which is definitely a good thing. Little things give way to big things. It’s like when I left my job at JC Penney for the job at the plasma center. Before, I’m not sure I would have gone through with it once it was obvious I couldn’t keep both jobs, or I would have really stressed about it. Instead, I accepted it, knowing that there was not a perfect fix to the situation, and accepted whatever consequences would follow, happy in my choice. I traded in good for great. I see a lot of people that are afraid to do that, afraid to trade in something that makes them unhappy, but is constant and somewhat reliable, in favor of something that is uncertain but has the potential to make them happy. Life is all about trading up, and having the balls to do it. Trading up for new jobs, new vehicles, new places to live, potentially even a new significant other or new friends, if what you have isn’t making you happy. You probably won’t be happy if you continue to accept what you don’t really want, under the pretense of formalities and "keeping the peace". I’m by no means there, but I’m getting there.