Half

 Today was my first day in my new position at work. It was good. I picked up a shift on Thursday, so I’m working five days this week, which is…enough. I am pleased.

I hung out with one of my co-workers over the weekend, and went to my first buffet since leaving Michigan, so that was cool. I ate 6 or 7 plates worth. Gotta get your money’s worth out of it. If you don’t have a massive, painful stomachache upon leaving a buffet…what’s the point? I tried crab, squid, octopus, duck, and scallops…didn’t like any of them. Weird stuff, though it was also a low-quality buffet. I mostly ate potstickers, sweet and sour chicken(without the sauce, it’s like a McNugget) and chicken and broccoli. I shall go again, during the week, when it’s cheaper because the weird stuff isn’t available. Went there with said co-worker, his cousin and my friend Scott. Afterward, we hung out at my house and played watched anime and Angry Video Game Nerd. They also went to Wal-Mart and got a stupid amount of candy, Who the hell makes a 2 pound bag of Sour Patch Kids? There were a few other things too. I must have gained at least five pounds between the buffet and candy.

That’s okay, I’ll work it off. I’m now borrowing a DDR pad, so I’ll put it to good use. I logged in 3 hours of DDR today. I don’t have the stamina to run decently, so this will help build it up until I can, and then I’ll really get in shape. Finally.

Talked to my mom, supposedly she’s going to do her taxes now so that I can at least go next term instead of having to wait all the way until summer term. She’s still canoodling with her now ex-husband, even though he sounds like a total ass and also crazy. She kicked him out, my grandma paid for the divorce, but now she’s seeing him again and hiding it from my grandma. Stupid. My brother also sounds more and more like a user. If he texts me it’s asking if I’ve sent the 360. I guess he keeps asking my mom if he can use her car, and has used my dad’s car also, and with both lied about where he was going and how far. I won’t be an enabler for him. My family is, honestly…like a disgrace to me. At least my immediately family. How the fuck did it get so bad? Actually, I don’t even need to ask that. It got bad because I left. I held it together. Before I was completely logical, back when I still felt, I still was rational. I wasn’t prideful. I would do what needed to be done to mend things, because it was the better thing to do, and actually the easier thing to do. If I were there, I highly doubt my brother would be a father, because I would have kept a better eye on him. My mom may or may not still be with her boyfriend/ex-husband/whateverheis, but there would be less bullshit and I’m sure she’d be less of a drunk. I am the glue that holds things together, generally speaking. I am the one who tries the most. Sometimes, the only one who tries. 

Hah. I definitely left this for two days and never finished it. I’m just going to save it and then make another entry.