Frozen Heart

 When they come to take my corpse away due to death from the poisonous McRib I have recently ingested, tell them that I died in the name of science!

I rarely eat fast food but have a strange compulsion to try out the most horrible items available, just once each. The Double Down, the shrimp taco from Taco Bell, the list goes on. They’re always horrible. I guess it amuses me. The McRib is a worthy addition, though it’s not the most horrible thing I’ve consumed from such a place, just probably the one least made of real things. Heh.

Work was thankfully much better today. Any sticks that needed adjustments I did myself, or it was something that was out of my control anyway. I ran my own section of six beds until I was shooed off to do other stuff. I’m slow right now, but that’s how I’ll get better. I was even building rapport with the donors. One of them said I should be more confident. Ugh, is it that obvious? I feel like I generally keep a good reign on my emotions, and only let on things when I choose to. I suppose confidence is something more. With some people they seem to eminate an unmistakable aura. 

After my relatively short shift I took a nap in my car, as I was waiting for a friend to get back to me on hanging out, as he’s moving tomorrow. I still owe him sushi for helping work on my car, but I’ll make it up to him later on. Plus I was extremely tired. Most nights I have difficulty staying awake on the 15-20 minute drive home from work. I don’t get it. I got groceries, and now I’m here, to slack off the rest of the day.

I forgot about the "blizzard" last night. It wasn’t anything horrible, but there was snow everywhere and ice on some of the roads. For this area it’s relatively rare. Quite a few cars were on the side of the road, and even on the freeway traffic ran about half its normal speed. I somehow made it to work on time having left no earlier than I always do. I find it sad that people forget routinely how to drive in adverse conditions. By the time I left work it all had melted.

Today isn’t a great day, or even a good day. Things feel empty as they often do. Nothing bad happened, and work was okay, so I’ll take it. Perhaps it’s a faint start toward building some momentum again.