Don’t Sleep In

Well, poop. I didn’t write yesterday, either. I got home from work, played a little DJ Hero, had to watch Scott Pilgrim vs. The World, since I had yet to view my favorite movie at the townhouse, and before even finishing it I was ready for bed. I intended to work on my Spanish presentation during it, but, yeah, that didn’t happen. Little bro has yet to send any pictures of the family, though he claims he has been, so I don’t know what’s going on. My drawing skills are amazingly bad and the teacher said stick figures are not acceptable, so that will be interesting. Worst case scenario I don’t have any pictures and lose 5 points, I think it’s only 5 anyway. It doesn’t feel like we’ve really learned that much, so in trying to make five minutes of dialogue I’ve been looking up a lot of words. Just individual words, and not translating whole sentences, but that’s still dangerous since I have no idea if the context is correct. Hopefully she’s somewhat lenient with it.

I need to finish and turn in my final draft for my scholarship essay today, I haven’t looked at it but I doubt I’ll edit it much. I think we have to present it in front of the class, not sure. Spanish presentation is also in front of the class. I absolutely dreaded such an event before, mostly when I was in school. I wonder if I’ll do better now that I’m older and somewhat more confident? I need to sit by cute chick in class and see if she wants to go get coffee afterward. Meant to do something similar with another girl in Spanish yesterday but for some reason the teacher just let us leave after the exam, so my plan to talk to her while waiting for everyone else to finish was dashed.

At some point last night I dreamed that my hair had lost all its coloring and was some grey-ish brown color. Not rational but I looked in the mirror just now to make sure, haha. I’ve received almost exclusively compliments for it. A good feel for sure. Also, it’s common for friends to be honest and critique something, but I’m sure it would be less common for a co-worker or someone who barely knows you to say such a thing looks bad, you know? It doesn’t really matter what others think ultimately, I like it, the assumed sincere feedback is a bonus.

I might organize some sort of hangout this weekend with the roomies if applicable and some friends of one of the roomies that I’ve hung out with a couple times before. Once we all went to sushi, and then last time we went to other friends’ place, grabbed them, and then all went to 4 Daughters(local pub, it’s relatively low-key but was pretty busy that night) and that was a ton of fun, I even partook in semi-drunk karaoke. I’d love to combine both of those things, I really want more sushi. We’ll see, I was thinking Saturday night, and I have yet to get around to messaging anyone. Perhaps my not-very-social streak will live due to laziness.

.Red

November 9, 2011

Hahaha, this one girl at work chopped off all her hair and I was like “Oh my god where did your hair go? It used to be so pretty and long… Oh my gosh. What happened!?” I totally didn’t mean to say that outloud… especially to her face… but lord did it look awful! lol I’ve really never had that filter that causes you to be polite to people when it’s a lie! hahaha That being said, I like

the Eminem look! I love the dream… lol I’ve had dreams like that where I have to get up ASAP and make sure I’m still my normal self or that something is still in it’s original place. lol Anddd, I want to go out! Take me, take me! RYN: Our fighting is about the money, which we are talking about and creating a plan. Lately it’s just been that we are stressed out about the money and the last

thing we want to do is have a discussion about it. But that’s pretty much a fight that is nonexistant anymore. I get frustrated about the living situation, but the reality of that is that we are supposed to move December 15th… so I’m just fighting about nothing really. And we had fought about the kids thing because I had been pissed off that he had never told me about the vasectomy in the

first place. So either I have a lot of excuses, which I can see how that looks like. Orrr, we are fighting just to fight. Which that’s how it seems. They are always about the same thing, and we are fixing each of these things… we just need to be patient. We can’t force tenants to leave that townhouse earlier than their lease is up… and we cant force our bosses to give us extra pays…

I think that most of the fights start because I feel like he doesn’t totally understand either how I’m thinking, or the severity of the issue at hand. He has short answers “ok” “yea” “I get it” … and it feels as though I’m being blown off or shoved to the side. So I think that’s when I get frustrated with him because I would prefer so reassurance or something and then he gets frustrated becaus

I’m frustrated. But they aren’t big life changing fights… we raise our voices for like 10 minutes… and then we’re talking about something else. I have wanted kids for a long time. And pretty much every day I’m thinking about it one way or the other. I also don’t want to be 30 and having my first kid. I also don’t want to get my first job and 3 months in need to take maternity leave. I’d

like to have 2 kids before I get a job. That way I’ve already gone through the beginning, I will already have a sitter established … or some kind of routine, that way I’m not trying to figure all this out and hold down my very first job at a probably not so patient school district. Also, that way I wouldn’t be worrying constantly about an infant while I’m working.

kai

RYN: really touchy…I’m scared to get my essay back. My mom is scaring me so I’m wary of her all the time until I figure out if she is being true or not.

I’m about to write an entry and I was re-reading your notes, I don’t think I addressed the textbook comment. I use a combination of Amazon, abebooks.com, eBay, and Overstock.com. Usually Amazon has the best prices. But even on these sites I only save about $50, which ends up paying for the shipping anyway. My books are just too expensive to begin with. Oh well.

+.:hidden-feelings:.

November 11, 2011

ryn: You don’t really need a reason. I guess it was just a way to justify it for my wallet. haha. You should always treat yourself nice! My mom hates that new thing with digital cameras where you have to hold it down halfway to focus and then finish pressing it to snap the picture. It can take some getting used to. My problem is just the unsteadiness in my hands. I’m working on it though =)