I’m doing it
Losing weight the 100th time is so much harder than losing weight the first 5 or 6 times. Okay maybe100 is a big of an exaggeration but you know what I’m saying.
I want to see BIG numbers on the scale. Not BIG like I saw when I first stepped on over a year ago but BIG decreases in the number but I’m only seeing 1-1.5 lbs a week. I know this is healthy and I know I didn’t gain the weight over night (well I can gain a couple of pounds by simply eating a butter tart so I know it’s possible to gain overnight) but I do expect it to come off overnight and when it doesn’t I get frustrated.
So, I altered my eating habits and joined a gym (again). I will only go to the gym 3-4 times a week and not beat myself up if I don’t make it the minimum times I’ve set for myself.
I don’t know if anyone else has the same brain functions as I do but if I stand on the scale every day and it goes up in the slightest I’m pissed and it could lead to a binge. I do not want to binge. That’s what got me in this mess in the first place. Also, I do not want to get on a such a strict work out schedule that if I miss a day I’m beating myself up and feel like a failure. I just want to be healthy and if it takes me another year to achieve that then so be it. Right?
The one thing I hate about losing weight is people. Stupid people are hard to avoid. That’s for sure. One guy at work asked me if I was losing weight. I said yes. (It took 60 lbs before they noticed? That’s not good and yes I gained back A LOT of weight that I had lost 5 years ago, such is life) Then he proceeded to ask me if everything was ok "you’re not sick are you". Um…No….. but thanks!
Asshole. I know he didn’t mean it like I took it but still why does one have to be "sick" just because they lost weight? I dunno. I’m over it now. (almost LOL)
Eric and I are leaving on the 29th for Punta Cana and I can’t tell you how much I need this vacation! Rest and sun is all I’m going to do for the entire week. I promise to stay on track with my eating because I don’t want to have to lose even more weight when I return home.
I feel like my life is so boring therefore I don’t write in here everyday or every week. Nothing really changes and when something does I feel like it’s just silly crap so I don’t bother writing. I’ll try to change that up a bit and write more. Even if it is about weight loss. LOL
Have a great day everyone. xox
Good luck with the weight loss…omg I had people ask if I was sick too when I lost weight…someone actually asked my coworker if I had cancer!! seriously, I was just an overweight person losing weight lol doesn’t mean i’m dying. Ohh punta cana! I’m jealous! have so much fun 🙂 and you should write more! RYN: thank you! I feel like we are always doing reno’s but we actually enjoy itand this is most likely going to be our forever house so we love fixing it up exactly how we want 🙂
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I write a lot of silly crap lol. I am the exact same way with the scale. It’s so depressing. And when the scale goes up a bit, there is a possibility of binge city but if it goes down, I’m not satisfied enough. So I don’t even get the high of it going down. BOO No one really knew I lost weight unless they knew I was trying 🙁
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I’m the same way with the scale! people are just plain stupid.
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Lol men can be so dense sometimes. It’s very possible that the guy thought you looked fine how you were and that’s why he thought you might have been sick, because you didn’t need to lose weight in his eyes. We always see things in a negative light when they’re about us. lol I feel you on the scale stuff. I’ve been having a hard time adjusting to the smaller losses I’m seeing these days but it’s getting better. Just remember any loss is a step in the right direction and they all add up! 🙂
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I hate the scale. I hate how we let it define us. We shouldn’t, but yet we continue to let it get to us at times. You have lost so much weight, don’t be so hard on yourself (I know, easier said than done!) You definitely need to write more! Even if it isn’t anything “exciting.” I am pretty much writing the same things over and over lately, but oh well!
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Yay for you!!! Congrats on the Weight loss journey! I agree with the fact that it’s so much harder to lose the 100th time….
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