October 17 2017

I’m so glad that I can be here, writing again at OD. I’m not sure how many years passed without it in my life…….but enough, to make me realize how much I missed it. I’ve never been a person who Journals, or have ever kept a diary…..so it surprises me that I did it for so many years at OD……and am how happy that I can once again, put thoughts down.

I seem to be an uncontrollable writer. My texts and emails to family and friends go on for a shameful length. I’m completely aware of it, know that it’s probably annoying to some…….but the words just keep pouring out. Some of my friends really enjoy my endless emails and suggest I should try writing….. serious writing, like articles or books.

That’s something that will never happen. I really don’t like writing……and yet, my fingers continue to keep typing …..almost to the point that I seriously contemplate editing and doing a lot of “cutting.” But I never do, thinking there are so many ways to get the point across, and I’m going into it, knowing that the written word doesn’t always translate in the same way to the Reader as it does to the Writer.

I’m usually a sarcastic person. Sarcasm never translates in the written word as it does when speaking. I also think that voice can really add to the sarcasm, like a double whammy. And yet, I still do it when writing. Now I’ve gotten smarter and precede any witty bon mot w/ ***** Sarcasm ******* but I think it still goes over very flat. I try now to limit the use but I often fail…..making me wonder why I need to use sarcasm so much.

I can actually remember my daughter telling a friend long ago, “Don’t worry, in our house, sarcasm only means you’re loved.” That made me think that I possibly use it too much……but, of course, that didn’t mean I stopped. Maybe someday I’ll take the time and research it and find out what compulsions/issues I have that make me use sarcasm so much.

Until then, I’ll probably continue the same way……although it does mean I often have to always have to add: “No, it’s just a joke……truly.”