Margit

July 27, 2011

I tried to find friends in Primary School for whole six years.
And I found one girl.
But then when my health became harder, and I couldn’t see with her for a month or two,
because I was trying to walk in rehabilitation centre.
And then when we finally meet and I told her, that my backbone doesn’t work good and that I have painful treatment she just said:
-Shut up! Because of you my Christmas were total disaster!
-What are you talking about?
-I got argument with my dad.
-And it’s my fault?
-Yes. You didn’t put my phones.
-Sorry but I spend my Christmas in Rehabilitation Centre trying to survive hours of painful exercises.
-It’s not explanation.
-I was trying to phone You every night when I was just able to do it.
-You know that you shouldn’t call me in the evenings because I am always busy.
-Patricia I don’t understand you! I have really seriously problems with my body…
-Shut up! My problem with dad is much more seriously than your next problem with health.
-If we don’t stop it, I’ll stop walking…
-And you do it again. Always just ‘I am ill’. I don’t want to listen about that any more!
It was in 1st class of Middle School. And she was my best friend, but it was too much for her.
I always listened to her, when she had problems.
And this one time I just needed to talk someone.
We hadn’t talk since this day…

Then I tried to find friends for whole three years so Middle School.
And You know what?
I came to conclusion that girls are so mean.
Not ALL GIRLS, but SOME of them.
I had nine girls in my class.
Me-and I became really good friend with myself 🙂
Aneta-played my best friend for long time. but now she doesn’t talk to me. She stopped when I wasn’t able to walk too fast.
Ann-actually my best class mate 🙂
Anny-sometimes it’s cool to talk to her, but she is… much more different than me… so it’s hard to understand her.
Emi-really good classmate 😉
Mimi-we hadn’t talked much
Iga-cool girl, but we had never became too close. We were good friends on IT classes.
Aga-nice girl. But she was in BIG FRIENDSHIP with Mimi so I even couldn’t talk too much with her.
Dominika-she was playing my best friend, when my friendship with Aneta was getting harder, but then she became BF with Aneta and I got alone. Without desk-mate.
And I came to conclusion, that I can only be closer with Emi and Ann.
Because I was too different to be friends with others.
But you know, what?
Boys can be really good friends 😉
Actually the best people I meet in MS were boys 😉
Maciek, Marcin, Alek, Olek, Krzysiek, Sebastian, Kuba, Konrad, Jacek, Jacob…
They ALL were amazing and took care of me not only when I was needing it… 🙂

I have two (three) other best friends 🙂
Krysia and Ania.
Third one is Bernadetta… She doesn’t answer my ‘Hi’…

Sorry.
I just needed to write it, because I am so afraid that I won’t find anyone in HS.
If everything goes well I’ll be in class with Alek 😉
It’s good news. Because he knows that I am ill and sometimes need help 😉

I am ending now.
Bye bye guys!

Love You!

Mood:
Pic: With Ann on school trip by Mimi
Music: Augustine – BlackBird’s Song

Sometimes, I think people (doesn’t matter what age) don’t know how to deal with others when they have an illness. While some people are simply cold hearted (like that friend in the conversation you wrote out), others simply are awkward about it and don’t know the right thing to say or do and, because of it, they just avoid that person all together. It’s not right, of course. They shouldtreat everyone the same. I mean, they’re avoiding you because you are sick a lot when, if they just took the time to know you, would realize how wonderful and amazing you really are! It’s sad that people have to feel that way. Maybe for those you can tell just feel awkward (but aren’t the hateful kind), break the ice and approach them instead. Maybe if they see how you are, they’ll warm up and feel more comfortable? I guess, when you get to you new school, you probably would have to anyway since you won’t know many people. OK OK – I wrote another book for a note here. Haha. Last thing – if you need someone to chat with, when you’re feeling ill or other times, too, I have MSN. I’m at irish.drumming@live.com, if you wish to add me. 🙂 Breathe eas

That friend you mentioned from middle school sounds like the most selfish, stupid, horrible person I have ever heard of. 🙁 You’re ill! And if people don’t understand that even now, that’s just crazy. That’s just horrible. You deserve way better. Big blessings always for you. 🙂 *big hugs*