Positive?

Hi…

2011 is so positive for me!
Yeah I don’t focus on my crazy illnesses, but backbone hurts a lot.
I came to conclusion that it will never be good enough to make me forget about it.
To make me forget how many tears I lost in rehabilitation centre or at home…
It makes me cry every time when I think about it.
So I try to don’t.

But I am waiting…
For better live.
For physiotherapy…
It should help me with fighting with pain…

Because it hurts so much.
It doesn’t matter what I am doing.
Hurts when I seat, lie, stand, walk, jump…
All the time…

I am afraid about my painkillers…
I am afraid about my live…
I am afraid about my feature…

But have I feature?
If yes, how it would be like?
How long it’s going to be like that?
Maybe until my live?
Maybe, it’ll be better after next physiotherapy?
If no, maybe I should like this fact that I’ll never do everything what I am dreaming about?

Really, It won’t be as hard…
But the second way WILL NEVER HAPPENED TO ME!
Because I am dreaming only about being happy…
I wish I can travel around the world and take lot of pics, and don’t care…
Travel without pills…
Can’t be…
I need to have my witamins and painkillers…
When I don’t take them for few days (witamins) I feel so bad.
I have really bad immunity.

New years is really positive.
I got +5 from Africa’s capitals 😀
And -5 for I semester from Geography! Yeah!!! I am queen!!

Boyfriend… Amazing… ^^
But he’s sick ;/
He’s not at school…
We can’t be too close, because I will catch it… 🙁
I HATE THIS ILLNESS.
It’s crazy I can’t kiss my boyfriend’s lips cuz it’s too dangerous… :C
He is going to came back school on Friday…
🙂
Can’t wait…
Hope he’ll be healthy enough… 😀

Chronic infection is crazy because it makes my immunity weak… ;/

Need to go

bye bye

<3

Mood:
Music: The Script – Talk You Down
Pic: New Year’s Eve 🙂 (No alcohol!)
Place: School