Pain is going to be my friend…

Hello World!

Still feel bad and have no idea what to do.
Still going to school.
3 days to my 16th birthdays!
I am srue it is going to be amazing day.
Yeah!

On Monday started new two-weeks-long physiotheraphy in my reh. centre.
It’s so painful ;/
But I think I am redy to do a lot to feel better.
To forget about pain.

So now I spend in rehabilitation centre about hour every day.
It’s so boring.
But doctor says that it’s going to help me with this crazy pain.
Cuz it’s such so hard for me.
When I come home I think only about taking painkillers and then going to bed for an hours.
Monday was bad day.
I felt really bad and I was so weak.
So I take more calories (380kcal xD), helped for an hour.

My diet is such crazy and hard to stand.
Need to take about 2300-2500kcal per day.
But usually I am not hungry…
Mum gets crazy about it. me too.
You konw it’s really hard to keep this diet and eat enough.
But I need it, to stay healthy and having good weight.
Because I lost weight really fast.
I don’t want to think about GG feed tube.
I heard about it, but I don’t know how does it look there in Poland.
So I eat a lot of fast things (but not in fast food) every 4 or 5 hours.
Eat two breakfasts, lunch (2 dishes), early dinner and one extra meal about 9pm.
But it doesn’t work all the time.
Sometimes I need extra snack (like on Monday)…
Sometimes I lost weight… Even when I eat 2500kcal per day.

Live is such crazy thing…

This week is going to be so hard…

Monday:
test from Geography
Wednesday:
MY 16 BIRTHDAYS!
Test from Society
Friday:
quiz from English

But it’s last week before Winter Break!
Will have two weeks of freedom!

Need to go bye bye!

Love You all!

PS

Thank You so much for Your notes. I am really happy to have as amazing readers as You. 🙂

Mood:
Pic: my eye
Music: The Script – For The First Time
 

Three Days to My Sixteen!!!
*excited*