I was born to love You my dearly

Hey people!
At first I wanna to thank You so much for all those nice words under my last entry.
You are so amazing, I am so happy to have You there 🙂
I am sending You hugs, kisses and LOVE because LOVE is fuel of life <3

I feel bad.
My legs don’t want to work.
They don’t want to walk.
My backbone doesn’t want to work too.
It hurts me so much.
My whole body is full of pain…
I still fight
I still believe
I still have hope
But I am too weak.
I am not in the mood to do anything!
It’s sad, but I can not concentrate on anything.
Even on kissing my boyfriend! Pfff… -.-”

Yeap…
He is so afraid about me…
He is scared when I take painkillers…

He always says that he is so lucky to be my boyfriend, he loves me and that he was born to love me and to take care of me.
It makes me cry, because I feel the same.
He is amazing… ^^

Tomorrow is Pawel’s funeral 🙁
I am not able to go, because I feel really bad and my mum won’t even let me to go to my best friend 🙁
Maciek is going to be… With white rose…
Everybody are going to have one white rose… Because he was young…
I am still sad.
I pray for him every night…

Have to go.
It’s 11pm… I took painkillers and I am getting sleepy…
I hope tomorrow will be better, because I feel really bad and I want to feel better than now…

I was born to love
I was born to be good person
I was born to be loved
I was born to fight
And to be winner!

Good Night everyone <3

Love You All! <3

Mood: *loved* *in pain*
Pic: me and rose from Maciek
Music: Sia – Breathe Me