Can’t forget to breathe slow

Hi.
Last days were amazing…
NO!
More than amazing!
Much more.
I was living like I always wanted.
Without crazy things.
It was just quite hard to sleep in night so I wast texting with my crazy boy.
Breathing…
Eating…
Love…
This crazy love with is near me all the time…
I won’t run…
Cuz need it.

Yesterday…
Swimming pool with Maciek.
The cutest two hours in last days.
I felt bad, but I went.
Evening was harder.
Last classes in rehabilitation centre ^^
When I was walking home I started suffocating.
It was so hard.

Now I feel so bad.
I am coughing all the time…
My sore id so dry…
Even water doesn’t help me.
I hope tomorrow be better.
I won’t tell Maciek how bad I feel.
I won’t him to be too afraid about my healthy.
He cares enough.
Really.
He is afraid every time when I can’t breathe deeply.
He is afraid cuz he can’t do anything.
He asked.
-What want you get for your birthdays?
-I don’t know
-Ugh Gosia, what are you dreaming about?
-You can’t give me it
-Why?
-Cuz you’ll never make me healthy…
He hugged me stronger.
-I am gonna try so hard.
-But you can’t.
-I know, I am gonna be with you to help you, but you can’t give up!
-I won’t give up, I just want breathe normal like you.
-Easy, you are perfect, even with your illnesses
-Nobody is perfect…
-But you are.
-Really?
-Yeap…
-Are you kidding me?
-No. Look at yourself! You are amazing!

He is so cute…
OK I have to do some breathing exercises…
Tomorrow I am going to make backbone’s x-ray…
quite afraid about it…
 

Love You all!
<3

Mood:
Pic: insomnia
Music: Alesha Dixon – Breathe Slow

PS
I am gonna to make some red highlights on my had…
What you think about it?