10.10.10 :)

Why girls from my class don’t accept me? 🙁
They go away always when I have troubles! ALWAYS! They never help me… won’t give me my bottle of water when I suffocate. They don’t care… It’s sad.
They didn’t spoke me about this weekend’s collection ;/ I love helping people! It makes me feel better, when I know I can help somebody who’s situation is much more worse than my. But they didn’t tell me about it…
On Friday’s P-E we played volleyball! It was amazing. I was in Mateusz’s team… We played very well but during second set I started having problems with breathing. It was so terrible and scared for me.

I hate my infection. Really. The hardest think is fact that everything started exactly one month ago. I hate it. I want free, normal, healthy life, without coughing, crying and all those stuffs. Because it’s killing me! I don’t know when I’ll have next fit, and how long it’ll be. It can be 5 minutes but it can be also 1 hour… It’s so stupid.

And I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I don’t know why I have such problems and why my infection is chronic.

But today is 10.10.2010 and on 10:10am I made a wish. Easy wish… Small wish… Wish about breathing, happy, life…

And tomorrow I go to school… Ugh…

My mum wants to make an appointment for my doctor. And make next check-up…

I am so scared… 🙁

Good night breathe easy.

XX

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Pic: My jeans