01/12/2014
Husband and son went to a college hoops game. I had won tickets to the game through work. It was a hot game and tickets were going for up to 7x face value. Husband was stoked. We didn’t tell son he was going bec his little 7 year old mind tends to run amok when anticipating something new. "What if this? Or what if that?" I reminded husband that it could all fall apart and they might have to leave. He was prepared. In the end it was a day they both will remember. I’m so glad input my name in that drawing. I’m so glad we decided to have husband and son go rather than getting a sitter for the kids and husband and I going. You can’t put a value on that one on one time with your kids. I don’t know how families with more than 2 kids do it. The decision about who should go to the game was even more evident given daughters current state of mind. She and I needed our one on one time as well. She is doing better since Thursday. Friday appears to have been a better day at school. Friday evening we all went to the book store. The kids had gotten gift cards for Christmas and a new book in a series that daughter is reading was just released. They were excited to go. She got her book and a Lego set. Son got a Lego set and ( not willingly) a couple of books at his reading level. He is a bright boy but funneling his intelligence to academics is a constant struggle. He can read well at his level and works hard to figure out words without any prompting. Getting him to actually sit down and engage in the practice of reading is the tough part. But alas he is a young boy with far more interesting things to do than sit down! The remainder of Friday eve was pizza and a movie. And Legos of course. It was nice to get back to our typical Friday night after so many weeks of running around. On Saturday after the boys left for the game daughter and I played Legos, talked, extended an invitation for a play date. I let her play her game on the iPad when she asked. While she did that I cleaned a bit. Still putting Christmas away. He friend couldn’t make the play date. She was skiing. I debated going skiing, but weather called for rain. And rain it did by mid day. Not the kind of weather we season pass holders like in January! Things chilled down overnight and we are currently having some snow. We will make a game day decision about going today. In the afternoon yesterday, she and I "worked out" together. I rode our trainer bike while she monkeyed around on the treadmill next to me. When she was bored of that she played the wii while I jogged on the treadmill. I needed to get my blood flowing to get me out of my physical/mental slump. After I showered she and I went out for "coffee". We go to a local branch of the evil empire of coffee. She gets a donut and milk. I get a latte. It’s a fun little ritual. She wasn’t quite as engaged in our time together yesterday, but it didn’t matter. The important part was that we were just together.
I confess that I could have been more engaged myself. I was a little distracted by emails from him. I will someday regret all the time I wasted on the fantasy. I already do. But I’m doing the best I can. I’m like a drug addict that is using again. The drug took me away from husband and kids last evening.