Bewilderment

Why does it feel like I am barely waking up all the time? I know what I need to do, but it is so difficult to change. Changing my habits and my environment comes with an overwhelming resistance. I don’t think that for me it is due to fear. It’s due to my laziness. I would much rather just sit back and watch the World pass by. But I am here. And I am grateful to be alive. Better to make the most of it.