The NEW me

How many times in my life has there been a NEW ME? I remember RELIGIOUS ME, DARK SIDE ME, PREPPY ME, LESBIAN ME, BAD ASS ME, HEART BREAKER ME… I have some great memories from all of my PAST ME’s.

I have finally acheived a ME I am proud of. I shall call her… "REAL ME."  *Ta daaaa

The past ME personas were actually me trying to change myself into a more likeable ME.

RELIGIOUS ME to please my parents.
DARK SIDE ME to please my friends.
PREPPY ME to please my teachers.
LESBIAN ME… I am thinking about this one… Lesbian me never really pleased anyone but me… But for the wrong reasons, I think.
BAD ASS ME to please my co-workers.
 

HEART BREAK ME was very lonely. Even if I liked somebody, I played so hard to get I tricked myself out of falling in love. I am not the type to walk infront of people and ignore a compliment. Or blow off a call I have been waiting forever for. This personality really got me some attention though. I could write a book on her and make a fortune! Okay, well not a FORTUNE.

I am finally so comfortable with myself and my surroundings… I don’t feel the need to be somebody I’m not. I feel good in my own skin, even if I am a little overweight… I am confident I will get to my ideal weight. I believe I will get myself there. I owe alot of it to my husband, he works with me in so many ways, I don’t even think he KNOWS how he helps me, but he does. I am not perfect, I’m just ME.
 

Anyway- This post was supposed to be about something totally different… I don’t know where this REAL ME talk came from… I must have had too much coffee this morning.

So I have decided to go back to "DIETING" for a little while, until I acheive my goal. I started yesterday.
Since I know I can lose weight by cutting calories I will be doing just that. 1200 calories a day, but this time I will be dividing them into 5 small meals instead of 3 big meals.  (Incorporating more fruit and water into my diet… )

Hopefully this will get my metabolism going, so I don’t have to keep "WATCHING IT."

I managed to weight 135 the last time I lost weight, and I gained 10 lbs back within the past 3 months because I stopped.

(Pic of me and Lo on JUNE 27TH, 2010. Our 2 year anniversary. I was 135lbs here)

I am back at 145 (Or so my scale says…) And I want to get to 120. That is pretty ideal for my height.

So yesterday I had a great light lunch, and I don’t know why I had not thought of this before. It was so good, I thought I would share it with you:

I had two of these. (BEAN TOSTADAS WITH LETTUCE, PICO DE GALLO AND SHREDDED CHEESE.)

And so incredibly light! Yummmm Yummm!!!