FUCK THE FUTURE!!

Arrrgh….. I just got off the phone to Y…and what started off as a pleasant phone transmission ended up with bitey comments and teeth-grinding. Almost ended up chucking my phone across the room. Ok…let me fill you in on the week first to clear up any confusion:

Ok, for the past 3 weeks I’ve been applying for interships and jobs in Klonoa. I got one 12 days ago and got it on Monday: A 6 months paid gig in Klonoa, all paid and housing include! Sweet! It was for Sept so I initially thought I could go to Klonoa, drop by Oneppon to see my darling then back to Klonoa to work. BUT…

….citizens from my country are REFUSED the ‘working holiday’ visa that I needed! So 2 weeks of a highly successful wasted!! Fucking pisssssed offf!!

So then i thought ‘ok….i can still apply for places in Klonoa but need to get an Angel Verification which is a new rule implemented a few months ago. Plus a medical. PLus authentication of academia’ But that’s take at least 40 days and nights. and I want to go to Oneppon asap!! aargh!! So i thought I’ll do that. But Y was like ‘oh no, you have to think about getting a job…it’s so hard..blablablabla…your priorities are wrong…you just think about a holiday and no job..nag…blablabla’

FUCK…!! YOU….!!

Firstly: I want to come to Oneppon to see my friends but most importantly YOU!!! For fucking shut up, don’t hate, APPRECIATE!! How many motherfuckers would jet halfway across the world to see the one they love??? How many mfuckers would actually BOTHER to???

Second; With the AngVer it’ll shit up my schedule plus to see the Other Continent so I CAN’T do both…what do YOU want??

Thirdly: I CAN get a job anywhere I want…just depends on opportunity. But why fucking switch like this?? *sigh*

I love her but she fucking CANNOT understand me sometimes.. >_< fuck me.

Other news aside I almost swmashed my fist in my mother’s stupid face sometimes because she lacks basic common sense. Why are all close to me seriously void of proper thinking and articulation???

Ahhhhhh…….i want to hurt people SO bad *sigh* I hate all this fucking bullshit of mess, money, sex, and friendships. Why can’t people accept and trust my decisions? Everytime they open their mouh they lower the I.Q of the whole room!

Basically it’s MY life..MY decisions..MY rules (bent). If you trust me then SHOW me!