Unmotivated

I’m utterly and completely unmotivated.

And the weather’s not helping either.

We’re having the first cold snap of the year right now… and everything’s snowy and icy and stuff.  >.< I hate the snow and I hate the ice and yeah.  I owe Court a new door handle for his car, which I’m going to send into the shop this next payday.  ::sigh:: What is it about him that brings out the blonde in me?

And the sun will set for you…. And the sun will set for you…

Lets see… I had my Holiday Bazaar a few weeks ago and it went really well.  I made a couple hundred dollars, which I put into my new business banking account.  That makes me really happy, that I have a little money set aside in there.  I also have a bunch of other fairs and bazaars set up that I want to go to next year… Including one really big one in Seattle.  The prollem with that one is that the booth fee is kind of steep… well, it’d be well, well, well worth it, but it’s a bunch to put upfront, and with all the other bills that’re croping up.  ::rubs her head:: I’m hoping that Court gets a call back for a job soon, so I’m not stressing as bad.

And yes, I’m stressing horribly.  I don’t think Mom and Court realize exactly how bad it is for me between work troubles, home troubles, money troubles, and just… everything.  hell, sex isn’t even holding any interest for me, not really, at least.  Court and I did curl up together to watch anime last night. 

I’ve been gaming a bit more than usual lately.  Although, I just got another order for 3 more bracelets and a necklace, and a headband.  c.c I’m going to end up working on maile for the next few nights, and the weekend… and I need more inventory for the shows.  and I NEED to update my website.  ::sigh:: I should be doing that now, but.. ::points at the title::

Oh, I tried starting NaNoWriMo, got about 2000 words in and realize that I have no story.  I have a bunch of ideas floating around, but no real story…. I am loving the Scrivener program though.  I’m thinking about asking Nikki if she is going to use the code for 50% off that winners get, and if not, I want to buy the program… but that’s later, when I’m not scrimping as much as I am.

I really don’t have much more to say. 

I miss you all.  I need to write more and get back into touch with everyone. 

I feel so alone.