Time for Change

 Just a quick note before I head off to bed.

I did some thinking the last few days and decided it was time for me to change my journal.  I’m still not happy with it, so I’m going to be fiddling around with it for the next few days, but I couldn’t spend another day with it the way it was.  ::shakes her head:: It’s hard to explain, I’m not sure if I can even really explain to myself why I had to change it.  

Well, I know a big reason behind it – I wanted to wash away even the slightest, tiniest, bits that could bind me with another.  I just… ::shakes her head:: Ipo, I know you know what I mean.  

Maika’i Wai… beautiful water.  

It fits.  Beautiful water.  I need to remember that I am beautiful, I need to see that, to feel the maika’i. Beauty.  Righteousness.  Well Being.  

Wai.  Water.  Water comforts and soothes, but when it’s stirred to action, it can be as destructive as fire in its own way.  

I wish I could say more.  My mind is curiously empty right now.  I’m so tired.