I Smell like Girl

 I’m feeling a little better now.

Not much but a little.

I got off of work and turned in the keys.  The RIFTs game was pushed back to Friday, so I didn’t have to go to Yelm today.  Guppy took me home… in his brand new Mini Cooper.  Like. So new that there’s only 650 miles on it; 330 of them put on by Guppy himself.  Guppy and I drove around… we had to show the car off to his aunt and then we drove around randomly for a while, listening to The Briggs.  I don’t know if I like them all that much, but Guppy was the one driving, so I didn’t argue with him.  The car’s nice… really comfy.  A lot roomier than what I expected from a mini, and he was really excited about it.  

Got home, only to find out that the neighbor’s truck (which doesn’t start) was pushed into the driveway so that it blocked our driveway and not theirs.  They weren’t there to talk to about it, but Mom says she’ll try to talk to them about it tomorrow.  We had to drive over part of our lawn to get out of the driveway.  Mom was not happy.  We went and grabbed something to eat and I talked to mom about the whole breakdown thing.  That’s pretty much what it was… stress, depression, and lack of sleep and all it took was a stupid thing for me to get upset about and I ended up crying for an hour in my office.  I told her about the doctor’s appointment and she was cool with it.  She likes the idea of meds as much as I do… but it’s something I need to do.  I <i>need</i> to talk to the doc about this.  I can’t sleep well; I either sleep way too hard or I don’t sleep hardly any at all since I wake up every hour or so and no matter how much sleep I get, I’m exhausted.  I can’t eat while at work without serious stomach issues… I tried eating things like bread and rice, and my stomach still didn’t like it.  And my emotions are totally whacked.  Mom says that she thinks it’s bad enough right now that my doc will end up giving me a week or so off for medical leave.  I hope so.  I could use a week of rest.

The new cellphones came in today.  Mom is using a cast off of Maili’s friends and it was… well… it was on its last legs to say the least.  So I got her a new flip phone and Maili’s phone got lost while she was in a drunken haze… so I picked her up a replacement as well.  I had to call Maili and tell her, just to tease about the fact that I had her new cell phone.  She was giddy and Mom promised to take it to her… so mom left early for work .  Once she was gone I went up to the bathroom and had a long soak.  With more bath salts and oils and such.  I smell like I bathed in sweet pea; which is pretty much what I did.  so I smell like girl.  Which is most definitely better than smelling like boy.  

I washed my hair and dried it really well.  I’ve decided that I’m going to stop brushing my hair, it really wrecks it and I tear out so much hair because of tangles and whatnot.  I was talking to a native woman at work with really long, beautiful hair and I asked her how long it took her to brush it, and she told me that she doesn’t brush it, she finger combs it.  I’m trying that out and right now I can say that i think I prefer finger combing to brushing.  I still get all the tangles out, but I take break and tear out much less hair and it just… feels good.  Bad side is that it takes longer to get it done… but I like it, so I’ll keep it up.  

I’m exhausted.  I owe a friend a "good luck" kiss before bed so I’ll give that to him and then curl up into bed so I can sleep.  God I hope I can sleep.