07/23/2010

This is probably going to be a disconjointed entry… just to warn you.

When I started this entry, yesterday, I was talking about how Courtenay and I were fighting a lot more lately… I had been having issues sleeping and the like, and we’ve been fighting and arguing about nothing really… but everything was so important when we argued.  And yesterday we spent time arguing and the like.  But then something happened last night…

We were talking and arguing and I just reached that breaking point.  I started sobbing and let down enough of my control that everything came out.  All the bitterness, all the pain, all the just… all the ichor came flowing out and I went on and on.  Courtenay soothed me, telling me that it was okay, and that I could let it out.  Every time I tried to get myself under control, he’d poke a little and I’d pour out more, until there was nothing left.  It was hard, and painful in a lot of ways, but it was also needed, very, very, very needed.  I woke up this morning after a better sleep than I have had in ages.  Just holding everything in was distorting things for me.  Hopefully the purging will keep me level now.  

The jewelry making is going well.  I have 5 orders right now in my order book.  ::grin:: Some of which I can’t complete till I get the color combo finalized (J_S! Scott!) and others I’m waiting for the rings for.  The rings should be here within the next week. ::stretches:: I’d get them from Shipwreck, but they don’t have the rings I’m needing.

I’m looking into more and more venues and I’m having a good feeling for this.  

Well, I gotta head out for work – I’ll have to tell you about last night’s dinner – and the penis cake.