September 3, 2005

9/4/05

Ok, well I went to the mall today. With my friend. She’s the one that thought about killing herself. (And, yes she’s alot better, I’m really happy that she’s trying to overcome everything but..anyway) We went to the food court, and got food and sat down and started talking. She told me her Step-dad yelled at her about something,I think it was when they found out she was cutting again, and said that I really wasn’t her friend, and that I was lying to her. My god that man needs a reailty cheak. It makes me so mad that he would say that. He doesn’t even KNOW me. Never the less should be makeing comments like that. I’m the one who helped her. I did. He didn’t do anything but yell at her and acuse her of being evil and being all satan worshiping. or something. It really pisses me off. I mean really. He shouldn’t be saying that at all. She needs positiveness. Not "Hey! Your best friend hates you and want’s you to die." And he’s all "Chirstian" and whatever. Bull shit. I think he’s just WAY to filled with God. God doesn’t want his followers to do that. Start saying things that arn’t true. I might be wrong, but isn’t that a form of gossip? I don’t know. She’s so misrable. I wish I could help her..but that’s out of my hands.

And, Just..Tywer. I love him. He’s like an older brother to me. Sometimes, I don’t know what I would do without him. He’s kinda like Liz, but not a girl, and I haven’t known him for very long. Somethings he does doens’t make any sence to me. He’s hideing his feelings from someone. And I want him to tell that person.But he refuses too. And I feel so bad about it because I know it’s half my falt. I can’t help but think that. I don’t know what to do. I’m not allowed to tell this person, and I want to. I want Tywer to be happy. And he says he doesn’t want to deal with it. I want him to. He should..

A Fine Trumpetier

September 4, 2005

It’s cool you help your friend I don’t get to see that all the time so good job. Hope you have better luck with her dad though cause there is little help with people like that so you keep fightin the good fight and I’d like to talk sometime if you like so keep it real. See ya

The Musician

September 5, 2005

Men like your friend’s father are f*cked in the head. I’m sorry. Sad but true. Cruel…but true! Anyway, I wish you the best of luck with your friend. It’s great that she’s making progress. That’s always a good thing. Take care. Talk to you later. Toodles. -Irma

Sometimes I really hate other people’s parents. Actually I usually hate them, more than I like them. They breed their OWN insecurities. It pisses me off, whatever is a problem of theres is soon their children’s… and they don’t deserve it at all. 🙁 And about the religious bit, I hate when people stray away from God’s plan. And let’s face it, God is LOVE,… and so..

anything that contradicts that, doesn’t make ANY sense. And it is people like that, that I can hardly stand…. because they make others not believe.. just because they talk some talk, but don’t walk the walk…GRRR!