September 10, 2005

9/11/05

I think it’s pathetic, but it’s bothering me. Mom has a new boyfriend. Tom. They’ve been on 2 dates. And, mom is comming back now, from one of them. He lives in Tulsa, and we live in NW Arkansas, and it’s really late so, mom has told him that he can stay here for the night then leave. The problem with that is, he has to sleep in the bed that Joey slept in. And, I dunnno.. It still smelt like Joey, and I use to go in there, when i felt alone or sad, and just crawl under the sheets and lay there and it felt like he was there holding me and telling me everything was going to be alright. But now it’s going to be all nasty. And I can’t do that. Why does my mom have to ruin everything? She’s mad because I have a boyfriend and I know it. She makes everything harder for me. And.. Says that things won’t work out and I’ll be alone for the rest of my life or soemthing. I really hate her at this moment..But I miss Jo even more..

*Less Than Three*

September 11, 2005

*kiss* I miss you, too. I hope everything works out. And I KNOW your mom’s wrong, you’ll always have me. Even if we end up with different people, you can always count on me. I love you way too much to just throw you away. And if she refuses to believe that, then poo on her, she doesn’t know me, apparently doesn’t know you very well, and definitely doesn’t know US at all. I love you,

The Musician

I’m sorry that your mom has another boyfriend but it’s a fact of life. I just…I don’t know what to tell you. These things and despite the fact that it makes YOU sad, your mom needs a little something in her life, too. Yes, she has you. But you don’t think your mom wants something to give her that extra twinkle when she smiles? We never stop to think about our parents. It wasn’t until a couple…

…of years ago that I REALLY started taking my parents’ wants and needs into consideration. Things, life…it’s all gotta keep moving. Your mom isn’t replacing anyone. She’s just realized it’s time for her to move on. Things are going to ok. Just take it one step at a time. And it’s not fair to say that you hate her. That’s too strong of a word. Hope you haven’t told her you hate her. Despite…

…what you might think, your mom has feelings, too. And no…this isn’t me sticking up for your mom. It’s just me trying to help you put things in perspective. Take care of yourself. Good luck with all this. And good luck with Jo, as well. Take it easy. Toodles. -Irma