8/3/05
Me and Mom went to this restrant and she asked about Liz. For some strange reason, this make me want to run over to the wall and add the lovely addtion of a hole. She’s being so mean! Just because I have a friend now, that I hang out with all the time she just has to go a-wall on me! I’m sooo sorry that I want friends, Liz. I’m sorry! OK!!? I’m sorry I want to go places, I’m sorry I need a friend to talk to, I’m sorry that you don’t have a any friends, I’m sorry I’m not there,I’m sorry were drifting apart. I’M JUST FUCKING SORRY! Everything’s MY falt! MINE MINE MINE! If your going to be like this then fine! I understand when you go places! I understand when you have other things to do and you can’t talk! I ALWAYS UNDERSTAND! Now, what? Now that I have a friend that I can trust to talk to, you can’t be happy for me?! Just for once can you not be? I would be happy for you if you found a friend. I would understand if you needed someone else besides me to talk to. Just…ARGH! This just makes me want to cry. I mean really. I told you that your the most important thing to me sence sliced bread. And that still holds true. I just have another friend. I still love you no matter what. I am just trying to get use to things around here. I’m sorryy..
Truth be told each person needs a friend, more than one or two even. I have one. One friend that I really trust, and he’s my boyfriend. The rest are more like acquantances, the people you say you’ll call but never do, the ones you talk to some lonely Saturday when there’s nothing better to do, but they aren’t your REAL friends. *sigh* I hope things get better with Liz.
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Don’t be so hard on yourself, hun. It’s at least as much her fault as it is yours, if not more so. She’s the one not understanding, she’s the one with the problem… I’ll talk to her and try to help her out without letting anything slip, I can do that… if she’ll let me… But try not to worry your pretty head too much about it, it’ll work out… trust me. 🙂
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Hey. Hope things work out for you soon. Thanks for noting so much recently. *smiles* Take care! note from an
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