6/25/05*

Well, my last entry (If any of ya care to know..) was my jelous girlfriend moment. I hardly ever am.. I dunno why at that moment I was. I suppose it was just all the stress from my new job, and missing everyone and, my mom and my boss and BLAH it just all caved in and smacked me in the ass all at the same time. And I was just haveing a bad bad night..That and the next morning I had a total mental brain spaz. Ugh, I hate those. anyway. Jo and me were talking about when he came here, and what like, the boundries are.. I didn’t expect that. I mean, I knew that he would want to do somethings. I just…thought he would want to do more then that. He is a guy.. Well, he also is very different from any other guy i’ve met so far, so perhaps that’s why? Hmmm. Well, I told him I’d think about it. I still dunno. He said he would be fine with anything that I decided. I still don’t know. I was thinking about waiting untill he got here to see how comfortable I would be with him even looking at me. Let alone touching me. *Sigh* I dont know! I hate makeing desitions…bah..just..BAH.

*6:55p.m.*One night a guy & a girl were driving home from the movies. The boy sensed there was something wrong because of the painful silence they shared between them that night. The girl then asked the boy to pull over because she wanted to talk. She told him that her feelings had changed & that it was time to move on. A silent tear slid down his cheek as he slowly reached into his pocket & passed her a folded note. At that moment, a drunk driver was speeding down that very same street. He swerved right into the drivers seat, killing the boy. Mieraculously, the girl survived. Remembering the note, she pulled it out & read it. "Without your love, I would die."

I don’t know why, but this made me kinda cry a little. I mean it’s probley not even true, but man..if that girl was me..I would feel so horrible..Just increadibly horrible…