12/3/05
I told her to get friends, and to get a life, because she needed someone else beside me to communicate with. So she did. And I’m horribly jelous. Now it’s Rhonda this, and Rhonda that. Rhonda says, and Kevin did this..and blah blah blah. *Sigh* It’s so horrible. I told her to find friends. And she did, and I’m so happy for her. But I miss her so much. She’s my best friend. I suppose I feel like I’m being replaced or something. I can’t really explain it. I guess I’m just going to have to deal with the new changes. Even if I don’t like them too much. She needs friends, around her, more then she needs me. So I’m glad she has friends there she can count on..I just..miss her.
And, on the other hand. My boyfriend is mad, because I’m friends with a guy named Alex. I don’t really know why he doesn’t like him. Alex is really nice and sweet, and funny. It’s not like I like Alex anymore then a friend. But I suppose, maybe it’s the way Alex treat’s me. I mean we all flirt. (Me, Alex, and My good friend here, Tracey.) And he’s never had a problem with any of my other guy friends. But if I say his name, I can feel tension from him. I know he doesn’t like it. And I don’t want him to be that way. But I don’t wanna drop Alex just because my boyfriend has a problem with him. And I refuse to. I have a life outside of my boyfriend, just like he has a life outside of me. He can do anything he want’s..as long as he’s not cheating, which I know he won’t do, because I trust him. But I dunno, maybe he doesn’t trust me with Alex? Belive me. Alex is good-looking. Don’t get me wrong. But I don’t think I could ever like Alex more then a friend. And, same with Alex. I’m not his kinda girl anyway. He likes school smart girls, that are pretty and what not. I asked Alex what he thought, about my boyfriend not likeing him, and he just said " It’s probley some weird guy thing, and your boyfriends mad because I get to spend more time with you, and he just get to hear about it, instead of being here with you." Which I pretty much agree with. I don’t know what to do. Jo get’s all upset when I say anything about him. And, that’s going to lead to fighting..and blah blah blah. *Sigh* I love Jo more then anything. But I just..I don’t wanna lose my friendship with Alex eaither. Because, Then I’d probley lose some friendship with Tracey. And she’s been my main support here. I just feel so helpless.
I know how you feel… the whole feeling that youve been replaced & such… yeah… it sux… thats how I feel with Brent… even though there I know its true… & it is how I feel sometimes with Bryan… which tends to be true… o well… I guess we have to live on, right??? Right???
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Gah *smacks head* I know… I was kind of like that when I was with Linz. It’s a guy thing and I’m pretty sure it’s what Alex said. But here, just dont mention Alex’s name when you’re talking to Jo. It’ll save the both of you the pain and hurt and probably even fighting. = You can do that right? *hugs* I really hope it works out… *more hugs*
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I think guys can just be…territorial. My ex got all freaked out one night when I went to dinner with my GAY friend. Yes, GAY, as in, nothing would ever happen even if I wanted it to which I didn’t. When I came back he (the ex) made a big show of sniffing me and said, “I can smell him on you.” Ass.
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Yeh, I know what it feels like when u get ‘replaced’… And dont let the bf thing get on ur mind too much 🙂 Also, thanks for the note.
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I have felt that ” replaced ” pain. It blows! I hope things get better quickly for you! Hugs….!
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Of course i remember you, hope you are doing well !
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You know, that’s exactly how Hanna felt when you became friends with Trace. I mean, like, almost word-for-word… You know I don’t want you to give up your friendship with Alex. I NEVER want to make you choose between a friend and me. But, well, “nice and sweet and funny” is my thing, that’s what I DO… and when I hear about how you flirt with him and hug him and stuff… (cont.)
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I guess I just feel like he’s trying to take my place… which he’s not, I know… but it’s one of those weird irrational feelings that I hate because I can’t control them… And he’s right (goddamn him), I hate that he gets to be there with you and I don’t. That he gets to hug you and I don’t… That he gets to have you burying your head in his shoulder at the movies… and I don’t. I love you,
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thanks… i needed that *smiles* hope to see you around here soon again note from an
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