the migraine in place

makr came up with this silly new rule, that i have to physically hand abigail over to the teacher each morning. that i cannot just drop her off.
this morning i asked em about this new rule. mostly because it is bullshit.
mark got pissed and started screaming at her, and then came up an yelled at me.
he’s just a ridiculous hot head. he stormed out of the house, i started crying and left. then he threatened to leave emily because of me.
i think he’s just psycho.
he’s threatening to send me home today…and i would love nothing more.
i told em, that in order to go home, i would need a taxi to heathrow, the flight, a train from chi-town to lansing and a taxi from lansing to home. overall, it would be nearly $800 to send me home.
i really didn’t so anything wrong here. i probabaly should have talked to mark about my problem with the rule. but due to his explosive reactions i chose em instead. this is the only time in my entire life where i can truthfully swear that i did NOTHING to instigate the situtation.
yesterday when i was quitting, em said that she had written out a list of reasons as to why this wasnt working out for anyone. it told her to spare everyone the discomfort, that no one needs to have their flaws pinpointed. i could tell that mark was just itching to blurt out everything wrong with me. saying shit like i’ll never get married.
god, he is just insane.
i have a terrible headache right now. the tv is blaring downstairs. but i really have no desire to ask him to turn it down.
he just doesn’t understand…that i just want the next three weeks to be civil. i want to go home and forget about this place.
i’ve got to many things to worry about, and trying to please his totalarian whims is just not important. he’s got some serious figuring to do, and i’ve no desire to take place in their family crisis.
i feel so bad for the girls.
ma’am