terrified of what?

for some reason i just haven’t been able to wirte in here…

mostly because alexia can’t keep secrets.

everyone is dramatic…

and i just haven;t had time.

so no…i didn’t disappear. i have been in mt. pleasant most of the time.

i went to CO for a week. worst trip of my life. i was fearing for my life. some people should never be allowed to care for others.

i realized my life was out of control. so i had to make some improvements and adjustments.

dating was one thing. i started dating james. sort of…but i’m leaving in twenty four days. i don’t know if i can handle leaving. especially james. he makes me feel fantastic about myself.

he said he loved me…alexia tells everyone we are in love. but i’m not. not so soon, not so callously.

brady still wants me to sleep with him, again. but i won’t.

james and only james is my theme song.

i haven’t felt so strongly about someone in quite some time.

my phone apparently has AIM…

that is an interesting concept…

to be online, and no where near a computer…

i could be on a mountain and instant msg someone…

i can’t get james out of my mind.

and i can;t handle that i leave so soon.