temper tantrum

he is just so…unavailable.
he always says things that are opposite to my desires.
last time i loved him and he said, could you imagine if?
and today i was being friendly and he said you could crash here.
what is this supposed to mean, and why can’t we be honest again?
it’s really hard for me to accept that he’s slept with other girls. i never realized that till now. sigh.
everything in time, i’ll get my answers.
for now, bed and planning for paris. and dreaming of highschool love.