ready rocket?

i am so beyond ready to leave here.
everyone is just in a crap mood. it doesn’t even feel like Easter, no baskets, no chocolate, no nothing.
I wouldn’t mind being home this moment.
there has just been lots of yelling. and snippety comments. they think i’m out here to play some GRAND MANIPULATION. honestly, i appreciate the dredit, because i am very capable of such things. but don’t they get it? my sister could be dying, i’m homesick…manipulation is the last thing i have vested my energy into. i manipulate to get what i want, and what i want is to go home. the things they are accusing me of would only prevent my departure. such silly people. obviously the product of the millitary. they are right about one thing, it strips you of everything. and if forgets to give back compassion and common sense.
so few days…till i’m on that plane, waiting in toronto and then drinking with highschool friends. it’s at 17 days and so many hours, sigh….
i am so bored. i ran out of books. sigh, i really pray the library is open tomorrow.
i just dont know what else to say. it’s a crap easter, a crap day and i’m crap tired.
ma’am