in all technicality

back to the daily updates.
finally have a new layout…took a few hours, haven’t used html in years.
i went out on my ‘date’ last night. hands down, fantastic time.
although i wasn’t feeling so fantastic this morning…shaky, icky, hungover.
finally got AIM on this computer, it has been amazing. i talked to more of my friends in the span of twenty minutes than i had the entire time i’ve been here.
i’d like to talk to jason ‘subject c’, lol. Been thinking about my friendship with him. I’ve been thinking about the evolution of many friendships I have. I’d like to clear up misunderstandings and lay down the law as to how I feel.
I’m still really scared of commitment. It’s sort of funny, i spent SO many years obsessing over having a boyfriend. I got him, it was fine. And then I lost it. If you consider all points it has been since 2002 that i was in a real give-take thing. And now four years later, with just the possibility of something on the horizon…i’m freaking out.
The book I have been reading, is eye opening. It’s a whole new genre for me, and it’s making me think hard. I’m questioning my beliefs and values. I haven’t done that in a long time. Pondering my trip to Colorado, thinking about God and the church I left.
The best part about my move to England is that I have so much damn time to think. It also makes me doubtful.
I’m going to bed, I’ve got a lot of things to do.