i can’t believe

i am so emotional. i don’t know how i will ever get a boyfriend and maintain anything real. and foolish. i never realized how well that word can describe what i feel.

foolish me…

i’m still such a kid anyways. and i’m getting involved with the wrong group.

I AM SO STUPID

i have been working on those boys for years, well no more than a year. and now that everything is working i had to move away from the plan.

my week in colorado will be good. it will give me some time to refocus.

no more boys from now till next wednesday.

unless it is the hott boy carly is supposed to hook me up with…or if it is my surprise visitor.

maybe i should call him tonight. he will set everything right. he always does.

it is so weird because everyone else see’s him as some sexual harasser. despite the fact that he is the only one who makes me feel desirable and cared for.

kudo’s to him.