false front

i feel like the whole idea of going to smith is a mistake…illusion.

i want to call them and say, are you sure this is the right person…do you really want me of all people to go there?

i’m not looking forward to the idea of more homework. i kind of wish school were over for good.

i have young life tonihgt. but my mom is being a bitch and saying i can’t go. i wish my nightly activities were like dance class, so that i have to go.

i met taran’s roomate this weekend. he was hott. taran said that ben liked me, and wanted to do it with me. but i didn’t. my mom is always telling me not to do it with chicago boys.

i spent friday and saturday night at tarans.

on friday we had an electrical fire at my house. sheets of ice fell onto the main power line, but i was at musical so i had no idea it happened until i saw the fire trucks. our house pets and everything else is okay. our power line is just a little mangled. duct tape is the only thing holding it to our house.

i have younglife tonight. remind me about boobtag…it is my crazy little game.

cherryx

February 23, 2004

well if it can’t be fixed with ductape, it’s not worth fixing.but your house is still standing–with ductape! so it’s worth fixing.or something like that.xoxo

I had a dream about coming home to firetrucks around my house when I was younger. I think that’s why I’m afraid of fire…

Our kitchen burned down one christmas, and for xmas dinner we had tofu hot dogs cooked on a camping stove, cos the fire blew the power. It was really cold, too.

My smoke alarm is weirdly sensitive. I burned pancakes, the smoke alarm went off, and then miraculously refused to turn off… leading to the fire trucks showing up to a 16 year old in pajamas. : ) Thought I’d cheer you up with a stupid story.

Congrats on getting through your senior year musical… and for having a good time with Ben. I will see you in about 8 weeks. Yup, getting old and moving on.

RYN: yeah Ive been doing my best to, and you? fun?

March 3, 2004

ryn: i’m all for trading lives.though as far as making it a tv show…i think abc family may have gotten there first.and they called it switching lives–or something equally lame.xoxo