epiphany

today was the perfect white christmas. as i came home from young life, no one was on my road. and the street light was on and i could see the snow flakes falling in the beam of light. it was quiet, and eerie, so i ran inside.

something is really bothering me. to an extreme. republican jenni. i think jenni is a really cool person, but i am just being overloaded. and i really think i do better without friends demanding alot from me. that is why lex and i are so pefect. we have very seperate lives.

so someone wore a shirt that said Republicans for Lord Voldemort. No big deal right? To Jenni it is a huge deal. So she makes a sign that says Baby killers for kerry. i almost loose it. i ask her not to wear it. i think it is obnoxious and offensive. but she does anyway, only kind of secretly. i never actually saw her wearing it, but others told me abut it. i just don’t get it. i WASN’T the one wearing the lord voldemort shirt, so why is she doing things like that to bother me?

secondly, she asks me all the time “have you talked to jason” no i have not fucking talked to jason. and if i have what am i supposed to talk about? jason and i were close friends a very long time ago, they tight bond no longer exists. i rarely see jason, let alone talk to him. i just hate how she always ask if i talk to him. i am not going to help or hurt her in getting jason, because i don’t care.

and the matt thing. matt was calling her or something. and she wanted advice, and seemed mad at me because i absolutley didn’t want to get involved. i am just frustrated. and overwhelmed. i don’t have enought room in my too small bubble.