as grace would say

this is whole entry is addressed to one individual. i guess if i write you a letter in my journal i don’t have to tell you in conversations. 😉
and now that i have written that, my mind is blank. pretty typical symptom of a dying brain.
don’t you think it’s sad and mysterious that i finally got my act together while being 5,000 miles away. it was probably the final push into project grow up sarah.
i’m pretty disappointed in myself that i’ve been acting like such a baby. that there are real answers and made for sarah answers. and talking in third person is pretty scary. but….
it shouldn’t have been that way.
i’m pretty much at the stage where i know i am super self-inflicted complicated. the worst part is getting rid of all my ridiculous habits. you may have thought i wasn’t that bad…but i was pretty terrible, my behavior that is.
i think i repeat things in conversations because i come up with really catchy similies and metaphors and i like to use them over and over again. you’ll notice it a lot.
i also find these key words like ‘re-invent’, ‘habit’ and ‘changes’ that i’ll use over and over to describe myself. it’s silly.
i’m really flattered(?) that you copy and pasted me. and talked about me to someone else. i’m still not used to those sorts of things. being quoted is a remarkable thing.
i’m so sorry for being a drama queen. and being manipulative and everything else i am. it’s really just not fair.
you deserve a lot of credit. goodnight, and i mean it this time.