An Entry That All Should Read: It’s Time
I’ve had my hardships and troubles, mostly they are in my mind. I keep thinking about all the troubles I think I have and all the needs nobody wants or will fulfill. Maybe it’s sheer desperation or some odd realization, but I’m forgetting all the pain and all the anger. I’m forgetting it not completely, but I’m forgetting the why’s and the what’s and I’m just remembering the feeling. I’m remembering the way I feel by being left alone and I’m realizing that ignoring all these people who abandon me, it’s not helping. It’s making me one of them. Well, I’m going to continue to do just as I do, call em and call em until they get the message. And maybe one day I’ll tell them that it made me angry that they don’t even acknowledge I exist unless we run into each other, but I probably won’t. When I think back on my first entries, or actually, the middle entries where I was hopeful, I remember why now. I believed that I could make a difference and I hoped that I would do great things, and I think I’ve already done that, I’ve already begun the process of giving others hope. And I think it was selfishness, a justified one, because we all need to indulge ourselves every once in a while, but a selfishness that made me sad. It made me sad that nobody else was trying to give me hope, they were just using me for the exact thing that I wanted to do for them. I think I had a really good night’s sleep…:) A lyric that I’d like everyone to read…….
IT’S TIME:
Midnight descends from the dark side of the moon,
And the clouds fade into the sunset’s hue,
Bringing the burning stars right into view,
We forget they’re always burning there,
Because we can reach the closer sun so soon.
I can feel the emotion pulsing in my blood,
It feeds upon the night, it feeds upon the blind,
I embrace it more and more with passing time,
And maybe it’s just an illusion,
But my eyes seem to believe the change is good.
It’s time,
To be a hero
The world really believes,
To be a lover
Who doesn’t worry about his needs.
It’s time
To not hope
For a better day
But to make
One in every way.
It’s time….
It’s time…..
It seems we fear the best and not the worst,
So afraid to see all the time we’ve spent
Being something less than what was meant,
And all we really need is someone to take a step
Now, before all, I’ll jump from the edge, first.
And if you need a hand, I’ll lend it,
I won’t ask for anything in return,
No matter how much the need may burn,
I’ll pull you through to a better day,
And if you’re hurt on the way, I’ll mend it.
It’s time
For a savior
To forget about reward,
For the work
To be done no matter how hard,
It’s time
To not hope
For a better day
But to make one
In every way.
It’s time
It’s time
We can all be angels if we just believe
In the love that binds us all together
And if we work and hope we can make it better
Take one last look at the wastelands
That you’ve lived in and pack your bags and leave.
Heaven’s not so hard to reach,
If you are willing to extend a hand,
To pull another up to the promised land,
And you may seem so weak
But strength lies within your beliefs
It’s time
To remember,
That you are just a part
To sacrifice
Your beating heart,
It’s time…..
It’s time…..
It’s time
To be a hero
That the world believes,
To be a lover
That forgets his needs
It’s time
To not hope
For a better day
But to make one
In every way….
Open your eyes,
And finally see,
It’s time…..
I’m really sorry I hurt you Brad. I don’t think I was ever the person you thought I was. I’m sure you’ve already read my diary and know who I am but if you don’t it’s Angie. You have no idea how much I have always admired you! When we were little I wished I could get to know you better. You were the main reason I wanted to be an actress. My heart will ALWAYS have a special place for you. thank you
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Please read my newest entry. I’m sorry if it bothers you but I want you to know.
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nothýng to do wýth thýs but my grandpa would always say “ýf you go over to someone’s house and they gýve you nothýng, when they come to our house we should make an even greater dýnner than ever, so that they’ll realýze they were wrong….” maybe you should gýve your frýends more when they keep gývýng you less… they’ll realýze ýt….
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You’re probably referring to off-line people but maybe you aren’t. In any case I hope I haven’t used you in any way, shape or form. I truly consider you a friend, except we can’t hang out. That would be cool if we could but alas I live in Hickville. *wink* You are a wonderful person Bradley Owen Jennings (whoa, I used your whole name…unless I spelled it wrong). Now I’m worried I did..haha
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*hugs* to The Lost (The Stranger)
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that’s beautiful.
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*hug* God bless you, Brad. If he’s not in the mood I’ll do it myself. Hey, brad.. sometimes your hindsight needs glasses. Not everything was as horrible as you make it seem. Think happy.
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