worse yet…

i don’t know why i even write in here at all. it’s not like anyone reads my entries. *sigh*

well, things with him got better for a while. a very short while. then, 2 nights ago he tells me he’s not sure if he loves me or wants me around anymore. this really sucks. i love him so much. he’s like air to me. i don’t know how i can live without him. emotionally i’m a mess. all i do is cry. i stopped talking to my friends at work. i can’t keep food down. i’m just messed up. i love him with all of my being and i can’t believe he’d do this to me. love is not supposed to be painful. i’d do anything to hear him say to me “i love you” again. i feel like i’ve been cut in half.