Well… (deep subject)
I had a good evening… mostly. I got to see Philip. And I went not knowing what to do exactly. I wanted to stay kind of distant, because I don’t want to be let down again. But we had a good time. We tallked a bit, and kissed, and cuddled. We just had a good time enjoying each other’s company. And I was truthful with him, but not hurtful. We were in his truck & I asked him straight out: How many months am I going to have to wait before I see you again. His answer: next weekend. I was wary at first. But a little later, at Pat’s, he said "come here." So I leaned in, and he said to me, "I will be doing something for my aunt next weekend, and after I am finished with that I would like to see you." My reply? I smiled and said "that would be really nice". I’m hoping, really hoping to work things out. To be happy together again. But I’m not relying on it, you know? Like that’s not the only thing in life that would make me happy. Yes, it would be nice, but if it isn’t meant to be then it isn’t meant to be.
*sigh* But it would be lovely! LoL
The part of the evening that wasn’t so pleasant was that Pat & Peggy got into a HUGE fight! They’ve been together almost 8 years. And he still won’t completely let go of his ex- he won’t delete her number out of his phone. And it sent Peggy over the edge. She’s ignored it far too long. And I really don’t think Pat’s gonna give in. He’s soooooo stubborn. This may actually be the end. And that would not be good. And Peggy got all pissed off, and took off in her truck. And I warned her not to be stupid, but my gut tells me she is dong something really stupid. Really stupid. I just hope I’m wrong. And I can’t even call her, she told Pat he could keep it. She didn’t want it since he paid for it and "paying for Peggy has ruined him financially". Yeah, it’s bad. I really don’t know what t do for her. She has helped me out with Philip far more than she ever should have had to. And I am just really clueless as to what to do to help her. I want to help, but I don’t want to interfere. I’m just lost! I came home tonight. She said she had wanted to be alone. And if she’s doing what I think she is, I couldn’t face her right now. I’ll see how she is tomorrow & probably stay with her tomorrow. I just wish I knew what to do to help,to fix this.
Tuesday, I must go downtown & pay my ticket! Grrrrrr…..