On top of the world…

I got to see Philip tonite. It was awesome. We actually talked about our relationship. He says that I make him feel good, when he’s with me he laughs, I make him happy. But the one thing that keeps going off in the back of his mind is children. He thinks I "deserve" to be a mother, but he doesn’t want kids. He thinks he’d be holding me back or something. So I told him the truth, I don’t want kids. I don’t think I’d be a god mother.  I don’t have the patience, I don’t do well with vomit, I just don’t think I’d be a good mother. It’s not something I’ve aspired to be. I like kids, I love babies, I just don’t think they’re for me. And I’ve been saying this for yearssssssss. Long before I met Philip. I think tonite he may have understood. I told him that I’ve never been as happy in my life as I was when I was with him. I told him that when we’re together we’re awesome. So I asked him what was gong to happen from here… He said he wants to move forward and see what happens! We had such an awesome night together! I love this man!